Oh dear

[alt_megan]

Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear. I don't think I'm ready for exams. Next week! And I wrote down everything I need to go over. And I put it in order. And scheduled each thing for the weekend. To look over everything. And when I'd got everything on the shedule it went to next Tuesday.

And I think I've lost some of my notes. I was walking down the corridor with them. And Peeves jumped out at me! I jumped to the side and they all went flying. And people trod on them. And they're all out of order. And I hurt my ankle, just a little. Perhaps it'll get worse and I'll have to skip exams.

If it does, I'll probably get in trouble for hurting my ankle.

But I do have a time for potions practice on Sunday. I signed up right off. Does anyone want to practise with me? I promise I'll be very careful and completely steady and not nervous at all by then. I'll be done with all of transfiguration and charms by then. That's planned for Saturday. After I made the schedule that didn't work, I just wrote down a list of what I don't understand, and that fit. But there's much more than I remember not understanding.

I'm going to fail. What happens if you fail? Do they throw you out?

I'm also nervous about Christmas. I wonder if my guardian will be happy to have me back. Now that she's got used to me being gone. And I've got used to being here.

Oh dear. I thought writing would help me consentrate. But it hasn't.

Why didn't I do more sooner?

Comments

[alt_pansy]

You are not going to fail. Stop thinking that, or you will. I'm having trouble getting my potions to come out clear when they're supposed to be clear, and cloudy when they're supposed to be cloudy. Mine seem to do the exact opposite of what they should, which someone said is fitting for me. But I'm getting better and maybe we could practise together on Sunday?

[alt_megan]

I'm not going to fail? Oh, I do hope your right. I should keep telling myself that. But there's so much I don't quite have right. And sometimes I look at things I really do know. I just stare at my notes. And I can't make heads or tails of them. It's really hard to stop thinking I could fail.

Did they really? That wasn't very nice of them to say.

Oh, do you really want to practise together? That would be lovely.

[alt_susan]

I had an owl from my Mum and she said she would be glad to write to your guardian to see if you can visit, for a day or two at least.

So we dont know for sure but I hope you will be able to come!! Mum is very persway good at talking to people and making them feel comfortable.

[alt_megan]

That's brilliant! I'd really like to visit you.