alt_megan | private message to Harry Marvolo

I keep thinking about what you said about trying to do the right thing but sometimes it doesn't turn out that way. And I am afraid that I will pick the wrong choices again.

Because Madam Umbridge was not a good choice. Even if she was in charge. Only we are supposed to look to those above us for guidance. But like Cedric Diggory said, some people lead you into swamps and you could get lost forever. Or you could get somebody else lost.

Because now Susan wants to be friends with me again, only what if I get in a swamp and I get her in there too? If I pick the wrong thing and something happens ~~like Sarah~~

Is it a halfblood thing, to be afraid? Except you probably are not ever scared. Only you said you are a halfblood too even if most people do not treat you like one. So maybe you are. Scared, I mean. Sometimes.

Please do not be insulted. I do not mean to be disrespectful. But I really don't have anyone to ask. Because not many people talk to me. Except Susan now. But I cannot ask her about this because it is about her. Or Eloise because she is still cross.

I wish I knew what to do. Maybe it is safer for other people if I don't have friends after all. Because then I can never get them into a swamp by picking the wrong choices.