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[alt_megan]

I decided Wednesday that I wasn't going to write here any more. In case I wrote something wrong. Or gossiped when I shouldn't. Or wrote too much here and not enough on my homework. It's really hard sometimes to tell what's right, and I really don't ever want to do anything wrong. Especialy here where everyone can see if I mess up. So after lunch Wednesday, I put this away.

But I was thinking about it more today, and I really like reading what people say. And all about what everyone's doing. And I didn't think it was that bad to just look. Especially since it's almost the weekend anyway. And I wouldn't be doing schoolwork Friday evening when I have all weekend. But maybe I should, because this weekend is so busy with Quidditch and chess.

But that's not the point. The point is I got this out and read what everyone wrote, especialy Sally-Anne. And I felt a little better. Because I never give professors cheek either. And also I would never say what Wayne said. So as long as I'm careful, I think it's not wrong to write here. Only when I'm not supposed to be doing homework.

But I think maybe I won't look at it so often, because I have to remember that Hogwarts isn't really for having fun or being happy, it's for learning to be a good witch. And even though everything's really exciting, like Quidditch and chess tournaments and exploring and writing in journals and being part of everything, sometimes I forget and sometimes I'm not as good as I could be. And I could do better. So I ought to try harder, and pay more attention in lessons, and be very careful not to be wicked, even inside where no one can see. Because people can tell anyway, and maybe that's why Wayne got

So that's why I'm not quitting writing here.

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[alt_harry]

Father told me that that was what Hogwarts was for too. Only it's hard to remember.

[alt_megan]

Really? Your father? Oh my! I suppose it must be extremely true then!

It'll be easier to remember now that you've said that. Your father.

[alt_harry]

Stop it.

[alt_megan]

What?

[alt_megan]

Was that wrong?

[alt_megan]

Your father's very important.

[alt_megan]

I didn't mean

[alt_megan]

Sorry.

[alt_megan]

I just really do think your father is really impressive. And sort of scary. And makes things memorable because he said them.

Really. That's all.

[alt_harry]

Okay.

I just kind of hate it when people bring Father into things. Only I can't help bringing him into things myself because he's my Father and if I never talked about him I could never talk about anything at home. So I wish people would just pretend that he was a normal Father or something instead of the Lord Protector.

He isn't scary at me, usually.

[alt_megan]

Oh. Okay. I'll try. I didn't know that's what you wanted.

[alt_percy]

You may be sure that your education here will lead not just to your becoming a 'good witch,' but a respectable, well-educated and productive member of our wizarding society. The journals project is part of that, so good for you for deciding to continue with your participation.

[alt_megan]

Oh! That's probably even better. It sounds very impressive. If I can remember exactly what you said I'll tell my guardian. She would like how you said that.

I'm glad I decided not to quit writing. I didn't know it was important, though. So I'm glad to know.

[alt_sally_anne]

Sometimes I worry about getting in trouble for something I write but I like reading what other people write and then I think of things I want to write and before I know it I've written in it again. And I don't know how I'd have organized the chess tourney without it.

What is your guardian like? Have you lived with her long? If you don't mind my asking. I don't know yet where

[alt_megan]

Percy said the journals project was important. So it may even be right to write.

And you're really good at organizing things. I'm looking forward to playing chess. Even though I probably won't be very good. I like to watch the pieces, and listen to them talk.

She's old. So old she wears little caps and lots of lace. Her sister used to wear black. Before she died. But my guardian doesn't hold with wearing too much black. And she smiles more than her sister used to. And sometimes she tells me the most amazing stories about when she was younger, and it's almost like family.

I asked her once why she wore the caps, since not even her friends do. And they're all old too. But I got in trouble for asking, and I still don't know. I've lived with her almost since I can remember, and I'm very grateful to her for taking me in and trying to raise me properly. And I don't mind your asking at all.

Don't you have a guardian? If it's okay to ask, I mean.

[alt_sally_anne]

You really think I'm good at organising things? I keep worrying I'm mucking the tourney up horribly. I only made one list of who was playing when and I'm afraid Padma everyone is cross about that and -- well, thank you, anyway.

I don't have a guardian yet, I'm supposed to have one by the holidays but I'm afraid I won't get one I guess we'll see.

[alt_megan]

I do! You organised it well enough that it's going to happen. Everyone's planning for it tomorrow. And it's going to be great fun, and you even found out about the cake. I think that's awfully good organising.

I suppose if you don't get a guardian, you could stay at school over hols? I don't think I'd want to do that. So I hope you get one.

[alt_sally_anne]

If I don't get a guardian I reckon I'll have to stay at Hogwarts.

But I'll probably hear something soon It was supposed to be Pansy but then she got in tr

[alt_megan]

But where were you before? Did your guardian die? That would be awful.

[alt_sally_anne]

I lived with my parents until I came to Hogwarts. It's in the regulations that you can, if everyone follows the other rules. My father was very careful aside from not sending my mother and so he was allowed to keep me until I came to school. But then I had to promise I wouldn't speak to them anymore, or send letters, and of course I can't visit.

[alt_megan]

Oh. That sounds really nice. Except it's harder now, I suppose. I can remem

[alt_susan]

I wish I could say something that would help you feel better about things Megan. But I don't seem to be much good for that lately.

[alt_megan]

It's okay, Susan. I was really upset about Wayne for a while. But now I've worked things out in my mind.

[alt_susan]

I'm glad that when you worked things out you decided to keep writing. I'm still so

[alt_megan]

Me too. But even if I didn't write here, we'd still see each other all the time. And I'm glad of that too.

[alt_susan]

Thats true! Your a brilliant friend and dormmate and I'm ever so glad to have you too.

[alt_megan]

Thank you!